There are days that start as if nothing is in place. You wake up and something is missing. You search but you can’t find what it is. You don’t know where is it’s place, but you feel the emptiness that has settled inside of you. There are days, when everything seems right, but inside of you is a complete chaos. You try to put it in order, but no matter what you do you keep feelingthe chaos.
Everybody has such days. Days when you don’t need anybody, but your own self. Moments to stay alone and face your demons, face your own pain and personal disappointment.
It was one of these days, that I do not deny. A day when I don’t manage to put myself in order, but days that I desperately need. I am forced to face everything that I do not like in myself, to accept it and then find a way to keep going forward. It is one of these days – bad for the ego, but great for my soul.
I went to the gym and I decided to work out. Pain is the weakness leaving the body. I always repeat it in my mind.
I put the bumpers on the barbell. Weights that I could lift without a problem… but not today. Today, my mind was trying to break me. It was trying to make me run away. How funny! Obviously, it didn’t realize that I cannot run away from my own self and that the best it could do was to allow me to challenge myself.
I put the bumpers on the barbell and as if I dumped down on it what was weighing… on my soul. I dumped it down on the barbell, so I could give it a shape; to breathe life into it and turn it into something material. This way it is easier to deal with it. When you see your enemy, you can judge him and see his weaknesses. You can evaluate if it is worth bothering or not.
I lifted the weight, but for a moment I felt my body weak. As if it was trying to give up. Was it trying to tell me that I am not stronger than anything? Was it trying to hint me that there is something outside of me and that I am not the one who determines what is gonna happen?
A good try! I lifted the weight and for a moment time stopped. A moment of numbness when my weakness met my strength. It was a matter of seconds – what was gonna prevail. A moment when I could see myself from the side. A moment when I reminded myself that the weight in the gym, increases, just when I become stronger and better. The weights get heavier, not in order to break me but in order to make me stronger.
The coach never gives you a heavier weight, before you are prepared to lift it. Life never gives you a challenge, before you are good enough, to go through it with mastery and end up like a winner.
Life never sends us obstacles, before we have nourished in our own self the opportunities, the qualities and the abilities to deal with them.
A moment, when I reminded myself that if I am holding this weight in my hands, then my body is prepared enough. It was just me and the weights. I was the coach and I believed in my abilities… just like life had faith in me.
I finished the set and I felt an urge of strength – physical and mental strength. As if by overcoming the weight in the gym, I overcame the burden in my life.
Again, on a couple acres of ground, surrounded by weights, I had an opportunity for a mini rehearsal for life.
A day when weights were once again, something more than a pile of iron. They were what symbolized the burden I was carrying inside. They were what reminded me that weight is not a burden, but a calling – for greatness. A calling that you can be something more than who you are today and that the weight that is given to you, is not meant to break you, but meant to make you stronger.
I placed the bumpers on the barbell… yet, in reality I dumped down on it what was weighing on my soul.
I lifted the barbell, and in reality I moved away the obstacle in my life.
He gym – the place, where you get the opportunity, on a couple acres of ground, to experience every emotion, in the time frame of a couple minutes. You get the opportunity to see life from a different perspective and then open the door. Get outside and feel more powerful and more capable than ever!
And my progress on the handstand push – ups.